Blog for Mental Health 2014

“I pledge my commitment to the Blog for Mental Health 2014 Project. I will blog about mental health topics not only for myself, but for others. By displaying this badge, I show my pride, dedication, and acceptance for mental health. I use this to promote mental health education in the struggle to erase stigma.”  ~ A Canvas of the Minds

Blog For Mental Health 2014

I personally have dealt with mental health issues and have family members and friends who have done so, identified or not, throughout the entirety of my life.

There are a number of things I didn’t know and understand for a very long time about Mental Health is that much of the “acting out” behavior of adults behaving badly – things like compulsive behaviors, out of control/extreme emotions and mood swings, addictions, domestic violence, child abuse, sexual abuse – can all have their roots in poor mental health and/or be exacerbated by lack of mental health support.

All of those things I just named, I have experienced and in a lot of ways continue to experience on a daily basis.

I knew I had depression. I’ve been seeking services and treatment for it in one way or another since I was pre-adolescent. My first therapeutic encounter was an Incest Survivors group when I was 11 years old. A few years later, after my mom’s depression and my out of control, angry little girl issues clashed, and she turned guardianship of me over to her younger brother and moved away, we got a call stating she’d killed herself. That single event, in combination with everything that had gone on before, I can now see, flipped a switch in my brain, that has kept me on a psychological and emotional spinning, roller coaster ride of chaos, overwhelm, codependency and dysfunction, for the past 33 years.

It has impacted, informed, and impaired all of my relationships with other people: family, friends, co-workers, people in my faith community. It has affected my ability to parent my children in healthy and constructive ways, setting the stage for them to experience psychological/emotional neglect and abuse from me and partners in my dysfunctional and distorted adult relationships. It has impaired my ability to work and educate myself toward achieving my personal and professional dreams and potential.

I have carried and lived with the stigma and shame, blame, and labelling from myself and others because, as a mother, I should have known better, done better, been better.

It’s taken me a tremendously long time to get to where I am today, admitting my powerlessness over the fact that my brain and emotions are not under my control and that I have to be completely honest about that with myself and with others, and especially with my Higher Power, if I am to be able to get healing and live a healthier, more functional life.

I am pledging to participate in this Bloggers for Mental Health 2014 project in an effort to educate, inform, offer resources, reduce stigma, and raise awareness and sensitivity to the Mental Health Issues and Challenges that people experience, every single day . . . people whom we love and care about, people we work with, people we live next door to, people we go to church with, attend school with, or drive down the road beside. People who may just be us.

A Canvas of the Minds is a community of individual bloggers who either experience or whose lives have been impacted by another who experiences Mental Health issues and challenges. The blog posts shared on Canvas are focused on Mental Health issues and concerns. The personal blogs of the individual bloggers can run the gamut and are not necessarily exclusive or focused on Mental Health issues, however, reading through them with the context and understanding of the impacts and challenges the writers have experienced due to Mental Health issues while reading whatever it is that they have written can provide a rich and layered understanding of people who deal with Mental Health challenges as being more than a diagnosis or partner/caregiver of someone with a diagnosis.

Reading through their posts can offer hope and the knowledge that, however isolating and debilitating a Mental Health diagnosis may be, it is possible to survive, live, and even thrive with one.

It is our collective story of hope, strength, experience, and wisdom.

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About Lillian

Figuring life out one day at a time. Concurrently writing on Human In Recovery on Wordpress as Kina Diaz DeLeon, as my psuedonym to protect the guilty and innocent alike. I'm finally integrating and accepting the different aspects of myself and my life into one mosaic instead of keeping the parts segregated.

18 thoughts on “Blog for Mental Health 2014

  1. Wow.. You’ve had quite a journey.. I’m very sorry about your mom and I’m sorry you have gone through all that you have. I tell people all the time that everyone, at some point or another, in their life, experiences some type of mental illness. Most won’t seek help, others, like me, have and have found peace, although the every day challenges still exist, my coping skills have been fined tuned to deal with those challenges. I’m one of the lucky ones and I know that.
    Great post.
    Stopping by from UBC, FB.
    Happy New Year!

    • Mimi,
      Thank you for your visit and your encouraging, compassionate words. You have been lucky. Truthfully, I now understand and know that I have too, regardless of the stark realities of some of the things I’ve mentioned and plenty I have not. As long as I have breath to breathe and a life to live, I have hope and that is what matters.


    • Jill,
      Thank you for visiting and your compliment. It is my hope and desire that what I’m doing on this blog, as a whole, and with Mental Health, specifically, will be a resource and benefit for others. Sharing makes that possible on a wider scale. Thank you for sharing


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  3. Hi, Lillian, thank you for this wonderful post (and your blog in general)! Congratulations for having transcended your condition. 🙂 I was wondering if you’re a Christian? I just caught the mention of “church” in your post.

    • Karen,
      You’re welcome.

      Thank you for taking the time to read and comment. However, I have not transcended my condition, I am learning to live with it and how to be functional in my life, as it is. Yes, I am a Christian.


  4. Ah, I meant that you’ve transcended it in the sense that you are “more than your diagnosis” 🙂 I have faith that God will continue to give you the strength to go through this! “But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me” (2 Cor 12:9). This is such a great mantra for Christian sufferers of mental illness, isn’t it? Press on, Lillian!


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  7. What you are doing with the ‘Blogging for Health” is an enormous thing to do and must take a lot of effort and energy…. thank you on behalf of those who read and perhaps receive information that can help them on their journey to wellness…. Diane

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